Real

I wonder if my prayers are to myself sometimes. That's scary. I know that i mention God's name in them and all, but what if im praying those things because i want to hear them or something crazy like that!

Last night i had a really good prayer time right before i went to bed. I've found that trying to pray while laying in bed and turning out the light is in reality just ... falling asleep. So i crawled out of my blankets (where i was in fact attempting to write an english paper), and i made it a point to pray out loud. Im not saying that because i did this i felt God's presence more, or that anything really different happened. I think my feet fell asleep because i was sitting on them, but that's about all i got.

But it wasn't about the response that i got. That wasn't the point. It was more just a realization that i had that because what i believe is true, that God was there in my room with me. He didn't have to show Himself to me for me to know that. Im not saying it wouldn't be easier or cooler or amazinger (Mattism!!) to sit face to face and have a chat with the Almighty Creator of the universe. But that's not the way that He has chosen to reveal Himself to me right now.

That's all i got. Just another day in the life of....

Mattism- amazinger -